Can I get a new life ?

I feel like dying. You made it, I hate myself. I just can't forget what happened. I need brain wash! I wanna forget abt it, I know it's impossible for now. Crying now. How to go to school later? Can I just get another new life? Love life! You used to rock my life, but now? Suckish!! Love life does rock my life, but you suck my life. Ughh. Only you know what you did. It's too late. You didn't respect me. I rmb I said I don't want.