The Past and The Fact.

I am looking at those things and words that he gave me. I am also thinking of our sweet memories and all those sweet msgs. Haha. I didn't feel sad at all but I feel happy bcs it happened. That's my first love. ^^ And now I think of how awesome treated me last time. It was awesome. Heh. Whenever I think of awesome, in my mind and heart, there are no other thing just only awesome. That's why I always can't concentrate on tests or during class. Hmm. How bad it is. Idk what would happens if he didn't occur in my life. I know, I won't be thinking of awesome always and blah blah blah. I really don't know how if awesome is loss now and nvr comes out again. I think I'm gonna be emo for the rest of my life. Haha. Not sure. I know I've no chance to be with awesome again, but I'm trying to be awesome's close friend or best friend. =) I know it's really hard or even impossible. No matter wut, I'm gonna try. I want you. I really want. Don't say me crazy but I'm love drunk. LOL! And I really don't understand why so many girls like u. Bcs u're popular? No. Nahh. Don't tell me "feel" again. Me feel je not all also feel one mah. Couldn't be lar. Sigh. Why am I so stupid? If I didn't make that decision or want faces then the girl with him now, it might be me not her. They match? Yes? Idk. And I can't believe that ppl will helped them. And now I only know u didn't treat me as good as I treated u. Still say love me(as a sis), u got take good care of her or not? If got u won't help them lar. Your love to me isn't real, just type out by your hand not from your bottom of your heart. And now gay guy suddenly pop out. I've nothing to say abt him, me and his memories were all suck. Wasted my money and his money calling each other "every day" Almost every single day. He wanted to get a kiss and hug from me, but at last? I didn't do anything to him. Pathetic. And whenever I'm with gay guy, I'm still thinking of awesome sometimes. -.- I miss awesome more than I miss gay guy. And most of the time, my heart is with awesome. I know awesome doesn't like me anymore but my heart is still there. Swt. So how? Wut to say? huh? Why I love awesome? Bcs I love awesome lar. Don't talk craps. Heh. And sorry for all these names. "He" "Awesome" "Gay Guy" Hehehehe.