Fly away~

Got to fly away
Got to fly away

Since I was a little girl I knew what I wanted
One day I would see the world and make my mark on it
Put in time, sacrificed never thought of thinking twice
Since I was a little girl I dreamed
Now I'm stand with you in this terminal
With a ticket so far from your love

Can I have one more kiss, one more touch
I just can't get enough of you
But I'm in a rush I got to fly away
Planes waiting up for me right at twenty-three
There's a doorway to my dreams
I could go or I could stay
Should I change my life or miss my flight?

My alarm clock in the morning said you got to go now
The breakfast you were calling and my heart just broke down
Cause tomorrow we will be waking up seperately
Wish I never heard that clock ring
See I don't want to win if my hearts got to lose
(Don't want to win, don't want to lose)
So how in the world do I choose?

I just need one more kiss, one more touch
I just can't get enough of you
But I'm in a rush I got to fly away(fly away)
Planes waiting up for me right at gate twenty-three
There's a doorway to my dreams
I could go or I could stay
Should I change my life or miss my flight?
(Change my life or miss my flight?)

How can you measure the promise of love
When it's weighing against a chance that comes once
How can I leave when I know he's the one
When the dust settles he might not be here
And I'm standing with you in this terminal
Crying my eyes out in tears

I just need one more kiss, one more touch
I just can't get enough of you
But I'm in a rush I got to fly away(fly away)
Planes waiting up for me at gate twenty-three
(Planes waiting up for me at gate twenty-three)
There's doorway to my dreams
I could go or I could stay
Should I change my life or miss my flight?
(Should I change my life or miss my flight?)
What do I do? ( change my life or miss my flight?)
Fly away, MmmMmm
Got to fly away
I got to fly away

Random. No title. Heh. (second)

Last night, I keep playing psp until it no more battery and I just simply play, I hope I didn't save it. I'm gonna be so dead bcs my friend lend me the memory card but I didn't help him play, so how? I ask my bro to help me? He won't de lar, ltr ask him again. Hahaa. Don't care. Or else just explain to my friend that I didn't play or wut? He said finish all the game. Damn weih~! Wut can I do? Almost all boys de games. Swt. Errmm.. Fine. Ask my bro. Guess wut I'm listening. Nobody! Haha. Being random today. I ate mc'd this morning. Errmm. Still okay lar, I want MC Flurry leh.
Kimoe is sleeping beside me now. Where the hell is Q~Bie? Seriously smth wrong with my fb. I upload the pics so long ed pun belum siap. Sighh. I've nothing to say ed leh. I'm just here to type craps bcs too bored. Heh. Okay lar, now go watch tv. Oh yeah, ltr gonna rebonding my fringe. Finally! I think I don't do rebonding my hair dulu only fringe. =) I hope mum really can bring me there in time. =D But before school starts I've to cut my fringe! I want! BYE for now! HMMPH! Sorry, smth just went wrong.

HuiYee.
The girl who wants him.
Hope that the guy likes her.
Kinda impossible for now.
Bcs he loves the other girl. =(
Nvm.
Gambateh~
+ U~

Uh huh. (first)

Two more days, schools are gonna reopen. I'm ttly not ready. =( Today some of them went to Sunway Lagoon. Last night I asked my mum, mii, today can I go Sunway? Guess wut? I asked her politely and she gave me a NO with an angry voice. I know I just went there at Tuesday but different friends weih! I don't care, I've to think of some reasons to go out next week. I wanna see my bro, Jia Wei. Hah. Long time didn't see him jor. I think they gonna be very happy today. I want to go! Aww. =( Every time when has an event with my bro, Jia Wei they all, I also cannot go out. Wth! Ughh! Who asked her to be my mum. God. -.- Haihz.. Jia Wei, Esther, Kelly, King, Kah Lok, Debbie, Megan, Renee and Yu Jeen are going. Feel so sad. I think I'm gonna be moody if Jia Wei nvr text me. Uh huh. Wut to do? Feel so bored. Hw also not yet siap. Apa lagi belum siap? Oh damn! My KH a lot of notes to copy and the stupid kain need to jahit! Isshh! Don't care ltr on air-cond to do hw. Heh. Hope you guys will have fun. Uh huh. I wanted to give up abt smth but my heart doesn't want me to give up. So wut to do? Make it as usual. =) Idk what's wrong with my fb, after playing the stupid social city, my comp becomes so hang. Damn weih! Jia Wei stopped texting me liao. =( So bored. But Tien Cherg keep asking me to help him log in his fb. Hah. If u gimme the fb password. I'm gonna change the password and play your stuff! XD Lol. Just jk lar. Actually I'm lazy to play the games on fb some more my comp so lag. I wanted to use laptop. All took out ed. I'm home alone again. Hah. The movie. Home Alone. I know I'm typing craps. Heh. Don't care abt the craps. Just typing for fun and make my blog alive. Lol. No one read my blog jor, wut for updating. Right? Yeahh. Lol. I'm talking to myself. Yeapp. You are. Wheeeeeeeee~ I'm talking to myself. I'm crazy again but I'm not smiling and not looking at the keyboard. I only look at the monitor. I am testing myself without looking at the keyboard. Eh, can weih! Err.. Okay lar. Stop here. Go post the other post. heh. Smth wrong with me today.

The Past and The Fact.

I am looking at those things and words that he gave me. I am also thinking of our sweet memories and all those sweet msgs. Haha. I didn't feel sad at all but I feel happy bcs it happened. That's my first love. ^^ And now I think of how awesome treated me last time. It was awesome. Heh. Whenever I think of awesome, in my mind and heart, there are no other thing just only awesome. That's why I always can't concentrate on tests or during class. Hmm. How bad it is. Idk what would happens if he didn't occur in my life. I know, I won't be thinking of awesome always and blah blah blah. I really don't know how if awesome is loss now and nvr comes out again. I think I'm gonna be emo for the rest of my life. Haha. Not sure. I know I've no chance to be with awesome again, but I'm trying to be awesome's close friend or best friend. =) I know it's really hard or even impossible. No matter wut, I'm gonna try. I want you. I really want. Don't say me crazy but I'm love drunk. LOL! And I really don't understand why so many girls like u. Bcs u're popular? No. Nahh. Don't tell me "feel" again. Me feel je not all also feel one mah. Couldn't be lar. Sigh. Why am I so stupid? If I didn't make that decision or want faces then the girl with him now, it might be me not her. They match? Yes? Idk. And I can't believe that ppl will helped them. And now I only know u didn't treat me as good as I treated u. Still say love me(as a sis), u got take good care of her or not? If got u won't help them lar. Your love to me isn't real, just type out by your hand not from your bottom of your heart. And now gay guy suddenly pop out. I've nothing to say abt him, me and his memories were all suck. Wasted my money and his money calling each other "every day" Almost every single day. He wanted to get a kiss and hug from me, but at last? I didn't do anything to him. Pathetic. And whenever I'm with gay guy, I'm still thinking of awesome sometimes. -.- I miss awesome more than I miss gay guy. And most of the time, my heart is with awesome. I know awesome doesn't like me anymore but my heart is still there. Swt. So how? Wut to say? huh? Why I love awesome? Bcs I love awesome lar. Don't talk craps. Heh. And sorry for all these names. "He" "Awesome" "Gay Guy" Hehehehe.

Sunway Lagoon outing~

In the morning I woke up at 8.30AM. I asked my sis to lend me her shoe, guess wut she said. She said I lend u a RM400++ 's Lacoste shoe ah? If u wear dirty ed u buy for me ah? Then I said fine. She said I can give u smth, wet tissues. -.- Then I used the wet tissue to wipe my shoe lor. And at last I forgot to take my shoe! Ahhh! And Lai Man said she's coming at around 9.45AM till 10AM. But she called me and said she gonna be late a bit. She comes at 10.30AM. She still need to find where I live. Lol. She doesn't know where my hse is. Find Find Find.... Finally she's here and with Yi Jing. And we're suppose to be 7 girls and now 3 girls. Hahah. All parents didn't know. No boys for this outing. When we reached Lagoon. Wow~ Lots of ppl lining up. ohh. We lined up too. Yi Jing and I forgot to bring IC. I took out my IC and forgot to put back. Sighh. But at last that ppl still give us discount, I think. We go in and put our stuff into the locker and we go to play the 360. Nice! Hahaha. Then play the cup thingy. I hate that weih! Pening sangat. They said my face look white! Pening mah, of course lar. They went to play the pirate revenge. Haha. We go to play the water park jor. First Lai Man and I play bcs Yi Jing need to go find pants, she wore jeans. -.- After Lai Man and I play, we go find pants for her, finally she bought it and we play again. blahh blahh... Got one thing funny in water park, it's we forgot where we put our shoes! lol! At last we found it of course. After playing in water park, we go to shower and Lai Man lost her "watch". After that we went to eat, the burger there suck! And it cost RM15 per set. Lai Man kept taking pics while we're eating. And Zhien asked me to call her, they're playing there and I heard King's and Kah Lok's voice. Wasted my money. After that, she called back and Lai Man was saying hello and hello but no one answer. -.- Playing me lar now. After eating we go play roller coaster. It's AWESOME. Hahaha. And Yi Jing sat with a guy. L.O.L Emm. After that, we exit and go to Pyramid, I wanted to buy slipper and I bought one pair at banana peel. ^^ Then we've a break at Mc'd. They left me at Mc'd and went to washroom without me, I wanted to go also lar! And I've drank three cups of coke again. Hahaha. Lai Man's mum fetch us back again. ^^ thanks auntie. I want to watch movie ah! Yi Jing wanted to ice-skating! And Lai Man wanted to slp. Oh yeahh, when we're eating in Mc'd a guy comes and ask us smth and ask us to give him a minute to talk. And we nvr bother him. We ignore him. Haha. And he said ni men man man jiang lar. Lol. We laughed after wut he said and the whole day, Yi Jing was laughing no matter wut game we play. -.-
Cam-whore in car. That's all. =)

PBSM school camp~

This camp wasn't that fun. But the funniest part is War Game! Water Fight!! Hahaha. okay let me start from Friday. Once I came back from school, I ran to the bath room with wet body. Finish rushing everything, Lai Man called me: eh, I just reach home! I said: U faster go bath lar. Then I called Kelly or Kelly called me. I forgot ed lar. She reached school first. When I reached school, I saw YiHua. And she's with her parents. A committee was sitting at the "Gajibo" (the pronunciation) hehehe. He asked us which camp. We answered PBSM. Blahh.. Blahh.. Then reached the class, I saw Kelly. She's alone. And we chose room3(2K). After all those stuffs, we go to canteen to have our dinner but at home bcs of too hungry, I ed ate some so I just get a drink(syrup) and Kelly, cannot finish her fried rice so I helped her to finish it. ^^ After that, we gathered at the anjung maufakan. We started to play our first game. -Ice breaking- No first we draw our group's picture on the our flag. Then only we play ice breaking, how to play ice breaking? This is quite boring. It's the committees tape a paper with written character. Errmm.. I would be continue tmr. =)
Continue.
After that we played infraded. Sim kept walked on the drains. I can see so I didn't fall. Hahaha. I'm so cheating. ^^ That game made me full of flour and wet. My baju all very smelly. Haha. After that we went to bath, omg! The bath room full like hell! I used toilet to shower. ^^ They've supper but I didn't eat. It's just Milo and some biscuits. After that I went to bed. I can't believe that I can slp. Ally, Kelly and Sim cannot slp. Heard that they sang in the middle of the night! OMG right? Lol.

Second day.
Woke up. Asked them to wake up especially Sim. She still slping. -.- Then morning exercise. OMG! Ran for 3 rounds. The KRS just ran for 2 rounds! They sang their songs but us? I didn't sing. Haha. Damn hungry. 7.30AM breakfast! Finally! Hah. The breakfast was sandwich. After breakfast we've a course, it's first aid course. After the coarse we've a stimulation. I was just there to play and laugh at them. Felicia was pro in that and the noisiest! XD Around 11.45AM we went to take a rest and get ready for the cooking session. I didn't eat my team's food, I went to Ally's team to eat. I can't believe that I ate someone's saliva! OMG! Not a guy of course. After that, we play CSI! At last my team won! Hahaha. -.-" In CSI got one game is have to take the candies in a dish of flour + water. OMG! It made me wanna puke! A guy in my team his saliva inside weih! Eww! After the game, some of the ppl went to shower and Kelly asked her mum to bring some food to us! Shhh.. Don't tell others. Haha. Got sausages, nuggets, junk food and EGG!! OMG! LOL! These were our supper! Dinner time! We ate nasi lemak while the KRS ate BBQ! -sigh- After that we've Malam Kebudayaan. I think my team the last one. So damn lousy. Hahaha. After that we've war game! Wulala! I love that! bcs we played water! Nice! All wet like hell! Hahah! After shower, we've our delicious supper. Haha. Around 1.30AM, the committees woke us up bcs they saw somebody wanted to climb the gate out of school so they want to make sure everyone is here. And everyone was there with the mcc face. ^^ Went back to slp.

Third Day / Last Day.
Woke up. Morning exercise, this time we played game, the day before today we danced and sing. The games were so lame. ^^ Around 8.30AM we've our dinner, but actually our breakfast is suppose be on 7.30AM. We hungry like hell~ After the breakfast we've our station game. My team is the only team that didn't get wet bcs we left two wet games at last and we didn't play bcs teacher scolded the seniors that we cannot play flour and water. -.- But luckily we haven't play yet if not just wasted. Haha. But some of them had fun too. =D Cleaning time, a committee asked me, Kelly, Yi Hua and Lai Man go wash the teacher's toilet but we played inside except for YiHua, she super serious. Then, the KRS-ians come and say wut u all doing here? We said we're cleaning the toilet obviously, they said we're suppose to clean the teacher's toilet and u all go to clean the girls' toilet. We went in and see it's so clean and at last we didn't clean. Errr. After that, we went to canteen and mkn roti canai. It sucked! haha. Lol! I took three cups of drinks. Heheh. We just want the ice. =D We went to the class that we slept and cam-whore. ^^ After that, we gathered at anjung maafakan, and there had a prize giving and photo session. =) Around 12.25PM I used Lai Man's phone to call my mum to fetch me at 12.30PM but my sis came at 1PM! Isshh! That's all for the camp. Quite bored eh. ^^

"Love"

Love hurts
Love scars
Love would makes woundes and marks on ppl's heart and never wash away
Even though love has happiness but for me sadness and regret-ness is always more than happiness.
Any heart not tough nor strong enough to take a lot of pain.

Questions.
Why can't love only has happiness?
Why love always no forever for me?
Why would I always get confused in love?
Why my love life always that sucked?
Why can't I get a suitable one for myself?
Why can others get happiness I can't?
Why is it always so hard in love?
Why must I always regret after everything?
When can I get my awesome love life and true love?
Do I hate u, love?

Aww.. That's really hard. =(
Started to sob.