Bye 2009, hi 2010.

Bye 2009, hi 2010.
I remember when I was writing my diary in 2008. I said I won't couple or hook on someone but I did. *sigh* I'm already hopeless. And because my love life sucked made me depressed. Depressed then not concentrating in studies. Ugh.. Kinda hate this year. I hope it won't continue next year. Yeah.
Bye boredom, hi freedom.
Haha. Cause this year's holidays are bored and next year gonna hang out with friends every day so freedom, freedom then happy. haha. No lar. Can't wait till school reopens.
Bye Yuk Chai, hi Taman Sea.
I missed yc a lot ed. Haha.
Bye old friends, hi new friends.
Meet new friends. =D Bur Tmn Sea a lot came from yc's students. BU4 too. Oh yeah, bye BU4 too. XP We gonna have a gathering after cny.
Bye UPSR, hi PMR.
Am I right? We study Form 1 stuff also for PMR ma right? haha. Any more? I don't know eh. Oh, I know.
Bye primary school, hi secondary school.
Hehe.
Bye childhood, hi teenage life.
I'm so happy to teenager eh. Haha. Just don't know why.
Bye 6Y, hi 1 .....
*sigh* still don't know my class. Orientation on the first day of school. =)
Gotta say Everyone who read my blog. Happy new year eve!! =D

KIMOE!!!

Ugh!!! Last night Kimoe bit my headset. I scolded him like hell. And I can't sleep! Ugh.. When my sis come back from Ipoh, I'm gonna tell her or scold her. Haha. Scold leh. I don't dare. ^^Ugh.. I want a new one. You guys know which is Kimoe right? I don't think so. I think only JiaWei(girl) know which one. It's alright. Let me describe him, he's a chihuahua, brown in colour, 1 years old, active, very playful, likes to lick ppl, friendly....

I'll post another post later. =)

Ugh...

Who the heck was that?! Leave msg on Debbie's blog and used my name! Some more he/she said im deb's jiejie, hey guys, debbie kind of..... stole him from me. Err.. Any error? I kinda forgot the sentence. Pals, do you think I will type im? I always type I'm one lar! If I really want to say her bads, why don't I just say it early? I knew that for so long. Now only want to type out. Why must I type out so late?! I'm not that stupid eh, Idiot! Use your brain lar! Where got ppl so stupid one. Got that's you! Don't know anything don't say. Such an idiot. Ugh.. Am I that bad? If I hate her or whatever. Why I still type there deb's jie jie? I hate her still wanna be her sis?! Whatever lar!
Bye!

Another.

I loved this morning's dream, it's a last dream of mine. I can't describe what was it about. haha. Cause it's really funny if I say out. ^^ Probably because I missed my friend. Haha. Gone crazy last night. Lol. Super Hyper but when I stopped, I felt so tired. Lol. I was with my sister in room. I was like dancing there? Jumping? Playing with the dogs? Lol. Well, sis went to Ipoh again. She gonna be MC again. Sigh.. Sleep alone again~ Lol. Kinda fun. ^^ but one thing, lonely. And I don't think it's really fun cause I can't use her laptop, she brought there. Ugh.. No choice. Ouch~! My elbow! Ugh.. Again I hit the table. Kay, Come back. Just now I watched back the video that I recorded. I felt happier cause it's so damn funny. Lol. Err.. Another year is coming, another school is waiting for us. Another class is waiting for us. More friends are waiting for us. Lol. I don't know what to post already.

P.S ThienSing, why you let Wei Ee to use your acc to view my blog. So good- hearted ah. Speechless~

It was like a dream. =)

This post start from last night around 9 something. Okay, my sis called my mum around that time, she said she gonna come back from Ipoh tmr morning by riding bus. My parents didn't want her to sit bus. After that, my dad said let's go Ipoh to fetch her. She wanted us to fetch her boyfriend too. Her boyfriend hasn't has dinner yet so my dad brought us to a restaurant and let him eat some. We left PJ at 11, then we started our journey. I nvr sleep on car, I was just listening to songs and texting. Around 12 something we reached Ipoh but not our destination. Then dad drove to the wrong way. And the traffic totally stopped~! There was a accident and I was texting with Jia Wei(boy). Half way he nvr reply ed, maybe he slept ed. Okay, that accident was so serious mann! Guess the accident killed how many ppl. It's more than 10!! And corpses' heads and bodies were seperate!!! Eww.. The distance from the accident and us were quite near. A lot ppl walked there and see what happened. We waited there for almost 3 hours!! I didn't sleep, can't even sleep. Heard that there's three buses got crush. But when we passed by there's only one bus maybe another two already drove off(not that hurt). The bus who killed a lot of ppl, because it's double decker so the first floor was totally empty!! Means two sides were empty, er.. don't know how to explain. Hehe.. Then, we need to go to Sg. Kangsar or what name is it I forgot and U-turn back to Ipoh. When we reached the destination almost 5. Means I nvr sleep for the whole night! I'm not sleepy at all too. Haha. After that, we used around 2 hours to come back to PJ. In that journey, I can't sleep because I was keep on coughing like crazy. Grr.. But I slept for 45 mins, around this time if I'm not mistake. After that, we went to have dim sum for breakfast at SS2. It was like a dream right? Haha. After that, come back home and sleep! Uh oh, eat then sleep! Cause fat one leh. Aiyah, don't care that much lar. JiaWei(girl) called me at 2. Thanks for waking me up. Lol. Let me count how many hours I slept. From 9a.m. to 2p.m. Er.. 5 hours. Hehe.. Sorry ah Jia Wei(boy), I think I can go out tonight. Maybe next time. =) Er.. he can't view my blog also. Lol. Don't care lar. Haha. I think that accident would appear in the next day newspaper. I can't wait to read about the accident. It's so serious, some more I was there.

HuiYee's experience. =)

What About Now by Westlife.

Shadows fill an empty heart as love is fading
From all the things that we are but are not saying
Can we see beyond the scars
To make it to the dawn?

Change the color of the sky
And open up to the ways you made me feel alive
The ways I loved you, for all the things that never died

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

The sun is breaking in your eyes to start a new day
This broken heart can still survive with a touch of your grace
Shadows fade into the light
I am by your side where love will find you

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?
Baby, before it's too late, what about now?

Now that we're here
Now that we've come this far, just hold on
There nothing to fear, for I am right beside you
For all my life, I am yours

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

What about now? What about today?
What if you're making me all that I was meant to be?
What if our love never went away?
What if it's lost behind words we could never find?

Baby, before it's too late
Baby, before it's too late
Baby, before it's too late
What about now?

I don't know what to do.

Elaine, why were you sobbing last night? You shouldn't cried right? what for? Yeah, why was I crying? I shouldn't cry because of that. Please don't ask me what happened, if no needed. What shall I do? Just leave it? Give up? Don't? I can't be so selfish. I can't destroy it. I should pretend don't know anything. I seriously can't sleep well last night, keep waking up. Sigh.. I should hang out with friends more, then I won't think that much. =) I don't want to go out with the other classes. I want only my class or JiaWei and Jen.
Okay, JiaWei said her mum doesn't want her to go Tmn Sea now. Wei, don't you think that's funny. Er.. Don't feel like blogging now.
Bye~
Christmas Eve~!!

Lifeless~

I'm lifeless cause I'm too bored today. My sis went to Ipoh, I'm gonna sleep alone tonight. Err.. not alone cause still got two dogs. Lol. I gonna miss her. XP She will be back after 3 days. Well, I think I'm not going to countdown tmr. :( Tmr night I'm gonna be lonely. Bro is going to countdown means left me lar. sigh.. Then, sis is going Ipoh for being MC. Yesterday was seriously busy. I wish I could go back to yesterday. XD Rewind pls. Lol. Last night went to party, it's kinda bored. I still want to play that game weih~! I'm addicted to it. Hehe.. Ally's bro Jonathan wanted me to help him in that game. I didn't help. Evil me lar. I want to search for that game but I forgot the name. ='( And JiaWei, please reply my msg. That's urgent k?!
Holiday's post is short. hehe..
Bye~
Tata~

Yesterday's Life.

Well, my blog gonna be dead blog so let me update.^^
Yesterday, Jia Wei and I went to Sunway Pyramid. We reached there around 1 something. Then, we called Kelly to bring us to the place that held Comic Fiesta. Then, Je Yu taught us no need to buy ticket. Lol. Then, we went in without ticket. And the ticket cost RM15. After that, we left. We went to buy our stuff. We walked everywhere almost the whole Pyramid. After coming back from Sunway Pyramid went pasar malam with sis to buy stuff and eat. Lol. I'm lazy to post mann..
School is gonna reopen. Waiting for it. Waiting for tmr night too. See you two tmr, Ally and Sim. XP Can't wait. Haha. Wow~! This is really a short post. Lol. See ya.

Approved~

Woohoo~Finally I got the letter~! I'm going to SMK Taman Sea!! Yeah. Firstly, my sis drove to take the letter. When she got it, she opened out and she called me. She said sigh.. you go back to your BU4 lar. I got shocked and said huh?! Really ah?! She said yeah lar. Then I was like really depressed so she said No lar, tmn sea. Lol. I was like continue hyper and playing with the dogs. Haha.. Gone crazy that time. Cause I really don't want to go BU4, the rules there suck! How to say, the girls' hair have to tie up like pigtail. Omg~! that's ugly. Erm.. sorry for the friends who go BU4. Actually only for me is ugly.^^
Whew~ Now I've no worries already. haha. I'm really bored now. Emm.. Going to shop with Jiawei on the coming Sunday. Need to buy present too. Sigh.. Don't know what to buy. Thinking.. Any idea? Aww.. headache again. Gonna die because of headache. Lol.
Hahaha... This time I'm gonna get back my money already, cause I can in Tmn Sea. Waiting for the money that Tien Cherg owed me. Haha. Who the F*CK is this number?! 0192896590. This is a guy! And this 0378032142??? Huh?! Holiday too free already is it?! And a lot of money?! Send some for me lar! Stop irritate me~! Thanks Ally for letting me know who the F*CK is that 019's no.

Dream.

I had a sweet dream last night. I want it to be real. I remember the situation of the dream, we're still schooling. Haha. Can't let you know about the dream. =X hehe.. It's a secret. Aww.. This dream comes because of I've chat with anonymous last night and miss it. Don't hazard a wide guess, cause I've chat with quite a lot of ppl last night. I hope I can get this dream continue tonight.^^ That's so sweet. Haha.. Who wants to know? If you want, read my mind. Lol. That's impossible. I remember there's a place I went before in a dream too. That's weird. But the ppl I went with last time wasn't the same. Er.. I think just forget about it but not the dream. I don't want to forget that awesome dream. I woke up because I found out that just a dream, I want it to be continue so I continue sleeping, I hope it would continue. And it really continue! I miss the front part, I loved the front part. I don't want to forget until the dream comes true. =D Ouch! My long nails made me hard to type and it's a little pain when I'm typing. Alright back to the dream part. In that dream I can see many nice view, such as waterfall, water fountain, mountains etc. That's a kind of memories too. Lol. -END-
Tmr is daddy's birthday. Thinking of where to have our celebration. ^^

Huiyee's dream. =D
Loved it <3

Aww.. Confused.

I hope what she said is true but I think she's faking. If it's true why that person didn't tell me. That person act like don't know who am I. Why did she wants to tell me. I feel really really confused after she said. I can't stand it. I don't believe that person will tell her. Aww.. confused. It's impossible. I don't understand. I know that person quite well. I know that person wouldn't tell anyone. ( I guessed) I'm not sure. Can I trust her? I don't know her really well. So was she lying to me? Is that a good thing that she told me? I don't think so. Cause that's so darn annoying. I hope it's real~!! Why can't it's real?! Can that person tells me that it's real? Can? Impossible, I think. Why must it happened on me? Aww.. feel like dying. That made me so uncomfortable. It's so pain.

The other stuff.
Kok Yu Jeen is freaking me out~! Grr.. Wtf you want?! I'm already very confused on something, you still want come to annoy me. You ah. He's so irritating. Grr.. Stop forcing me~!

Yesterday's Life.

I went to shop 1U with my mum and sis yesterday. The first shop we went was Padini Concept to buy formal clothes. We spent quite long there. For me waste time. Lol. Then, the second Zara. After that, we wanted to have lunch at Zammai Sushi. Gosh~! Too many ppl so we went to the other Japanese cuisine, sorry I forgot the name. Lol. I hate the cashier~!! So slow to find a bill. Grr.. Waste our time. Then we went to window shopping. Lol. But I obeyed, I never comply the rules. I bought a phone chain. Lol. It's pink and black with skulls. I liked it. Haha. It should be I love it. Lol. I'm getting hyper and hyper. But I don't look hyper. In my heart I'm hyperactive. Lol. Okay come back. The last region we went was pet shop~!! Lol. After that, we went back home and bring dogs to talk a walk. Then, come back and take shower. Around 7:30 PM we went to Sungai Buloh for our dinner. The view there is quite nice. That place, you can also fishing there. Haha. The foods there were delicious. Wow~ It's so nice. Haha. The dessert was quite nice too. After the dinner, we went for joy-rides and we chatted a lot of stuff. Reach home. What to do? Of course online lar. Lol. I had forgot what time I went to sleep. Hehe.. -END-
Oh yeah, daddy's birthday is coming. Waiting for that day. Hehe..
Elaine's Life. ^^

.....

You should have tell me earlier, but now it's too late. Probably few weeks before I would still think about it. I'm sorry. But I didn't reject you right. I never say anything and you helped me to answer. Anyway, you're right. I was just kidding but you took it so serious then it's okay lor. I don't mind. GGosh~! How many boys did I hurt this two months? Only Jiawei knows the real reason of why I rejected them. Right sis? I hope you guys feel better after that. I can't sleep well last night just because of I'm thinking that am I wrong? And there were two funny thing happened last night. I was in a black-out last night at around 10 something(only upstairs) Luckily still can online if not I'm gonna be bored the whole night. Haha. I can't find my phone so I asked my bro to lend me his. You know what? He doesn't want to lend it to me but after I found my phone, he lends it to me~! In my heart I was like what the fark?! When I want it you don't want to when I don't need it already, you gave it to me?! Grr.. haha.. After that, I continue reading manga. Lol. Then, when the lights got back, I lied on my bed and listening to the songs. That time was already 1 something, I still don't feel sleepy and I was thinking about something I did, were those wrong.^^ When 2 something, my dad suddenly came in to my room! I got shocked~! And my sis was not around. So I pretend that I was drinking water and I put the headset under my blanket^^. The last song I listened was Lady Gaga's Eh Eh remix version. Lol. Then I went to sleep. Actually I'm kinda curious, how my dad knows that I was still awake? I off the lights. Nahh.. Don't care that much lar. hehe.. So early blogging today.

Elaine here.

Argh..

The f*cking spammer is freaking me out~! Grr.. Anyway, thanks to Debbie for telling me to put my blog as private. haha.. Sim can't discuss thing with me in blog ed, she need to call me ed lor. hehe.. Holidays are seriously bored. Holidays are freaking me out too~! Hahahaha... This weekend I can finally go shopping~! Yay~! How great it is, isn't it? haha.. Next plan, hang out with Jiawei and Jen on next next Saturday or Sunday for Christmas shopping~! Woohoo~ You know what? Now I'm like Jiawei, addicted to manga. Lol. Cause these days too bored ed, and that day ts asked me, reading manga? I said no. Then, I forgot what happened ed. That day onwards I started to read. Haha.. Alright then. I continue reading. hehe.. Oh yeah, I found out something. There's one relationship, it's really complicate. Only it's only Jiawei, Hui Sin, Yvonne and I understand what it means. Okay, it's friends became enemy, enemy became friends again, friends became lover, lover became couple and the last one. Couple became pet siblings. Lol. Alright. Bye. =)

This is a story.

That was many years ago...I was a poor student. I just moveed into an old house, where the rent is cheap. Although the place is abit remoteness, it's very quiet. One night I came home late. Then I saw something, which can't forget in this life. Next day I checked out the house, but I didn't find any clue of people had ever came to that place. Obviously, this place had been abandoned for a long time. I got scared. I sealed my windows with iron fence. But at the same time I also began to doubt if what I saw at that night was true. Does ghost really exist? Many days passed. I almost forgot that lady. One night I saw her again. She appeared in the same place. The diffrerence is that this time she saw me too. I was very frightened. That lady suddenly appeared in front of my window. She told me she was a ghost. But she was not malicious. She said she shouldn't have appeared, but if her soul can't get peace, she wouldn't dissapear. So she had to come out.. She went on to say that she had died 81 years ago. Her bones was in vilid which had been destroyed in a fire, leaving only a small backyard house. I began to pity for the poor ghost. The next day I left the window open. She appeared again. I said I want to help her. She said that " You will know". One day in my dream, she took me to her home.The home she ever lived when she was alive. She told me that her father left the whole family property to her before he died. One day, she fell in love with a young housekeeper. She felt that she was the world's happiest girl at that time. After getting married with the housekeeper, she did has some happiness days but everything had changed since she got lung cancer. Her husband also began to become increasingly tired of her. One night, in order to seize her property and to get rid of her, her husband strangled her to death, In the struggle, a candle sparked a fire. One day, I saw many cars stopped at thje edge of the ruins. There was an old man gathered by many people. He was saying something while the other people all listen to him respectfully. The old man seemed agitated, but after only several minutes he left. I suddenly realized who he is.One day when I come home, a funeral motorcade slowly passed by.I heard that the nearby hotel caught fire and there was 8 victims. They are a family. One of the victim is an old man, who was very rich.Now recalling what happened in the past, I was not clear whether it was real, or just it's in my dream. The other thing I can do is to record faithfully what happened.

Questions.

I've loads of questions to ask actually.
Why can't time rewind? Why must the ending like this? Why it ended so fast? Do I still like him? Do I love him? Why can't I forget the past? Why is that a fixed? Why can't it change? Why must it be me? Why do love complicate? Why is my love life sucks? Why is my holiday life so bored?
I'm lifeless.
I don't want the fact.
I want him.
I don't want the other him.
I want the one I wanted.
I don't want him to be my pet bro.
I just want him to be my pet bro.
I don't want to have him.

Haha. Do you feel confused? Try to guess who are they. It's two boys. hehe. I liked one but I don't like the other one. Sweat. I love one but I don't even like the other one. Haha..

Elaine Here.

Bored~!

The reason of I post this is because I'm too bored. My life is so darn bored without you, do you know? No one to scold, no one to talk with, no one to play with, no one to hang out with and a lot more. Where are you? I'm looking for you. I don't know what to do right now. I need you to teach me how. I can't wait to see you. I <3 You. ^^ I missed you lots. I'm bored so I took some photos, all the photos are on facebook. =D

Russian Roulette's lyrics

Take a breathe, take it deep
"Calm yourself" he says to me
If you play, you play for keeps
Take the gun, and count to three
I'm sweating now, moving slow
No time to think, my turn to go
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So I just pull the trigger
Say a prayer to yourself
He says," Close your eyes, sometimes it helps"
And then I get a scary thought
That he's here means he's never lost
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So I just pull the trigger
As my life flashes before my eyes
I'm wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won't ever the chance to say goodbye
But it's too late to think of the value of my life
And you can see my heart beating
Oh, you can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, no
Know that I must pass this test
And you can see my heart beating
Oh, you can see it through my chest
Said I'm terried, but I'm not leaving, no
Oh, you can see it through my chest
Said I'm terrified, but I'm not leaving, no
Know that I must pass this test
So I just pull the trigger

-End-

Yeah.

I didn't know nothing, I was foolish, I was lying to myself. I could not fathom that I would ever be without your love, nvr imagined that I'd sitting beside myself. Huh? Cause I didn't know you? Huh? Cause I didn't know me? But I thought I knew everything. I never felt the feeling that I'm feeling now that I don't hear your voice or have your touch. Why? Cause I don't have the choice. Oh, what would I give to have you lying by my side right here. When you left, I lost a part of me. It's still so hard to believe. Who else am I going to lean on? When times get rough? I can't sleep at night, when you're on my mind.
Why do I stay? Why do I stay in love? Dying inside cause I can't stand it. Make or break up, can't take it madness. We don't even really know why. All I know is, I try and try so hard to keep our love alive. If you don't know me at this point, then I highly doubt you ever will. I really need you to give me that unconditional love I used to feel. It's no mistaking, we're just erasing from our hearts and minds. And I know we said let go but I kept hanging on inside. I know it's over, you're really gone. It's killing me cause there ain't nothing that I can do. It cuts so deep, it hurts down to my soul. My friends tell me I ain't the same no more. We still need each other when we stumble and fall. How we gonna act like what we had, ain't nothing at all now.

Give me some comments if you think what I typed are reality. =)
Nights.

Gosh~!

Sucks mann~! My mum wants to cut my mobile Internet. Just because of I always brought phone to school last month and put it in pocket so always accidentally pressed the Internet button. That time I already know I'm gonna die and the phone bill will be very expensive. Can't believe that it's worse than I thought. Fine, I have to face the fact. Btw, I'll try to convince my mum. I would try not to text for a week. Nahh.. That's hard. But I can try not to phone anyone in a week. haha. Sigh.. How can I don't text any pals for a week in this boring holidays? One of my pet bro taught me to play something. His mind is to dirty, I think he should wash his mind using Clorox. Lol.. I'm just jk gor. hehe.. When can I hang out with friends? Any partay? Erm.. Alright. Have to go. Bye~

Spammer!

The one who named betchusucker in my cbox, wtf you want?! huh?! Can you please fark off from my blog?! If you hate me just don't view my blog! You said I'm bitch and if you're a girl, you're a bitch too! And not the normal one! Is the bitchiest one! You said I'm coward, if you're a boy, don't you think you're not?! If you're not, proof it!!! Type out your own name! You're only the sucker~! Before teasing others, please think before you tease! Sucker! I don't know how your parents taught you. I think your parents would be sad when they see you say these kind of things. Think before you do la! I think your parents not only feel sad, they will embarrassed because their dearest kid become so bad and rude. sigh...

Holiday's life.

I feel bored in this holiday. Some more I'm sick after the graduation trip. I'm waiting for the 20th of Dec, finally there's a party. 6Y-ians, you guys said wanna go Sunway Pyramid again. Please text me the date la. I'm waiting for it. Stay at home is bored. I hate the sick la, non stop coughing. Luckily, Huisin would phone me sometimes, so I'm not that bored. But whenever she called me her topics are all about Wei Hong. Jealous? haha.. Kinda. lol. Nahh.. I missed schooling days. There's lots of laughter. Sorry Wei, I can't go out on this Saturday. Hope you can have fun with them ya.=D I don't enjoy myself in this holiday cause it's too boring. Any entertainment for me? I'm lazy to post about the graduation trip stuff. It's awesome. I missed these days during graduation trip. Every night slept lately. haha.. Sigh... Time go so slow when you're bored, time go very fast when you're having fun. It's true. Is anyone having fun in this holiday? Share your happiness. =D

Bored in holiday,
Elaine.